:: the comeuppance

comeuppance is defined by webster in his huge book of words as a deserved rebuke or penalty. now, in my last post i lamented (or whined, take your pick) about my bad day. well, it seems that on the days when you do that, the next day is usually not as tough and you will always be reminded of how good you really have it. thus, the comeuppance or rebuke of the idea that you really have it worse off. that happened to me today. every time i took a break at work, there was some news source discussing the current crisis in myanmar in which 22,000 people are dead and in which the death toll is expected to rise to 50,000 before it's all said and done. 50,000 people are having/have had the worst and last day of their lives. it's estimated that millions of people will be homeless when all is said and done. millions of people will have nowhere to go while i live in a comfortable apartment that i don't bother to keep clean. i complained yesterday about all the problems i was having at work, in a job i don't like while i earn $7.50 an hour (not considered too terribly much by our standards) while people are dying because they don't get that much in a week. so, every break there was a tv or a radio that was shoving my selfishness and ego-centric idealistic crap in my face. what a miserable example of a human being i can be sometimes. i can really lose that focus sometimes and really think i've got it bad, but i always need reminding that i don't. that i'm fortunate. that there are people in much worse situations than i'm in and that i'm in a position where i can choose to help them. so, i repent of the attitudes that riddled my last post with selfishness and me-centric thinking, i'm wrong to think that, and i'm thankful for the reminder that things aren't bad at all.

something else i've been thinking about is the awkwardness that comes with blogging. i get the strange feeling that by blogging people get the feeling that i'm full of myself enough to think that anyone else on the planet cares about my opinions and reads this blog as much as i do. i don't. so, if there is anyone reading this, thank you. it is an unexpected surprise. i hope that you are learning things through my constant screw-ups, comeuppances, and re-focusing. if there is no one else reading this, that's alright. i guess i have more to learn from my own screw-ups, comeuppances, and re-focusings than anyone else.

in a light-hearted sports minute, the new orleans hornets are up 2-0 in their playoff series against my least favorite (and conversely, one of becca's more favorite) team in the nba, the san antonio spurs. go hornets, i'm calling for a sweep.

more to come...